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Hey, I'm feeling tired.
My time, is gone today.
You flirt with suicide.
Sometimes, that's ok.

-Korn

Bawal tanga bukas.

Tomorrow's my first race.

Tug-dugs. Tug-dugs. Tug-dugs says my heart.

Rage Against the Machine and At the Drive-in on loop mode. Bawal iba.

*Inhale, exclaim* 

Goddess, nawa'y hindi ako maging pabigat sa bangka.

I offer this race in memory of the most evil person I have met in my whole existence. 

I hate him so much it turned me to beef but if it weren't for him, no dragon would have needed to rescue me. Ayan. Gumanda tuloy ako further. Kuma-karne pa lalo. 

Tomorrow will also be for Team Canada, Team Austria, Team France, Team Germany, Team USA who all make up Team Taiwan. I realized that no matter how hard and how fast I row, Manila Bay is a long ways from where you all are. 

I'm praying for a successful knee surgery for you Benney Bear. My thoughts will be with you after the race ('cause I need to focus first) and until you get to the recovery room. Have faith in Taiwanese surgeons with laser visions.

Weeeheee. State U! Lezger!

Enter The Dragon

That was a lame way to title it but I couldn't help it. Bruce Lee is my father.

Breaking news: I joined the UP Dragon Boat Team two weeks ago. Today was my third training day. And. Wait for it...

I got drafted for a race next weekend! Wooohooo! How about a neophyte stepping up like tomorrow never comes? Wooohooo. 

I'm so excited. I feel that I will die in the race but I'm ready for that. I'm always ready to face that black-hooded, sickle-wielding bitch.

This started out as another form of sublimation. (Yes, sublimation has been the word since I returned from AUH.) We have only one person to blame for this. But I don't blame him anymore. Actually, now that I think about it, I thank him. I have been extra profound and prolific since...well, since him. All the absence and the silence and his I-don't-give-a-rat's-butt-cheek attitude towards me have forced me to whazzaaa at the world nine-fold than usual. (Doesn't that scare you? Scares my shrink. Hi Doc! You enjoying this post so far?)

I scraped my thigh "on the motherfuckin' boat!" (The Lonely Island, 2009.) And first blood has been drawn. Now I'm in it for the long polluted haul.

The water in Manila Bay is nastier than your enemy's face. Been awake since 0300. Drove 300km to Subic and back with Nekuh after training. It's now 2311 and I'm still high and dry! There's a certain kinda high I get when rowing for my team's life. It's on the same plane as the high I get when I pep. You're dying but you love it. Like a drags. Yeaaah. 

Every time I row and I feel my supreme powers spilling to the black water and running out, I imagine the faces of all those who wronged me floating in the water. Then HWABOOSH! I slam them with my paddle. 

I have found new powers and my ohm mani padme hum. How about you?

Or Something Better

I feel like I have to write. Something. I'm not sure what about or to whom. 

So I guess this will be another one long brain vomit.

Where in the world is the Lino Cayetano?

Guys, you need to take me to ze beach.

This feels like 8 years ago:

This, feels like 2 years ago:

Sublimating is so hard kids. Don't attempt to copy me.

Yes I am quite a chef and I have proven that the way to a man's heart is NOT through his stomach because if it indeed was, then 3 gazillion men should be at my feet by now. But noooo. 

Anyway.

Now I leave you with a beauteous quote form the beauteous J. Casablancas:

"Let him go.

He gave up.

I gave up."

6. I can slay the jabberwocky!

"I'll miss you when I wake up."

- Alice

"You won't remember me."

- The Mad Hatter